in my heart...

im okay now..

2005-04-03T21:46:00.000-07:00

i'm okay now..sometimes..kailangan lang talaga to go with the flow to realize and be..
to accept and to acknowledge..
hai..salamat..
sa lahat lahat sa inyo.. salamat....

learning..?

2005-04-02T19:33:00.000-08:00

hi.. i think i'm going to use my head for a change..
tignan ko lang ung mechanics kung paano gumana ang puso pag sinamahan mo ng konting utak
kasi parang hindi naman tama yung sobra sobra na yung isa lang ang ginagamit diba?
dapat balanse lang..
kaya titignan ko kung papaano iyon..
tignan ko lang..experiment

life..buhay..

2005-03-25T09:49:00.000-08:00

love breaks your heart..love makes you smile..love..love..
sometimes your life takes turns...twists..
the ride goes up..comes down..fall..fall down..hard...
when it hurts..it hurts bad...
if you're hit..you're hit hard..
it's never maybe..it's yes,,or it's no
it's definite..
definitely hard..
umm,,, hhfft...phoonk!!!...pfft!..unh!!!!
when it cuts you.. it cuts down deep..
when it touches your heart..it's eternal..
whether it's real or not..
it's there..

one more..

2005-03-24T11:55:00.000-08:00

this is nice..ü

"when you talk, i'm on every word you say. when you move, like the breeze on a summer dsay. when you smile the sky turns from gray to blue, that's what you do.. you're the kind of girl i think of. and you're the kind of girl i dream about. my heart is telling me i need you in my world, because you're my kind of lady,, you're my kind of girl.."ü

hai..heheü hello!

2005-03-22T18:02:00.000-08:00

i don't want clever conversation..i love you just the way you are..ü

minsan talaga sa buhay..may mga bagay kang hindi mo mapigilang balik-balikan,, hai..ang tama ng pana ng kaibigan kong si kupido..

hehe.ü sometimes, there are times (heheheheh:D)
pagmalakas nga naman ang tama..lumalala lang ng lumalala..ü heheü

=)

read this..

2005-03-22T08:49:00.000-08:00

"if only time were mine..if only destiny were my friend..if only fate were on my side"
-anonymous

"Believeing is the best thing that could happen to a person.. so why let 'reality' mock his so called 'fantasy'?.." - anonymous

"hayann mong hanginin ka ng hangin..hayaan mong alunin ka ng alon..at hayaan mong ilakad ka ng tadhana.." -anonymous

i'm back...

2005-03-22T08:39:00.000-08:00

it's been a long ime..and when i say it's been a long time..it's been a long time..

so many things have happened..the things written on this blog of mine no longer have any meaning to me..virtually everything has changed about me..you wouldn't even recognize me..in a room full of enraged thoughts..in a room full of insane madness..in a room full of never-ending pain..i'm in the middle..most intense..most powerful emotions flowing to and from me..the anguish..the suffering..

the pain..slowly slicing through my chest..it digs deeper..deeper..it goes through my heart..my tired heart..my weak and frail little heart..my courageous little heart..it doesn't stand a chance..but it survives..it bears throught the pain.. it lives.. but never does this end..it happens again..it's acycle..and everlasting cycle that tortures me..

welcome me..i am back...

again..again..again..oops!

2004-10-26T22:19:00.000-07:00

hai hai haii...again again again...

sori pow!!!sa ang aking pangungulit..sori sori sori!!!

nagkamali nanaman ako oo!..hanep!..mud!.,.argh!!..kaasar na ha!..kasi naman ano!..malay ko ba?! nanaman?! di ko naman akalain e!..o baka nga mali nanaman ako eh!2..argh!!!..

did i read the signs wrong?! tell me please! hehe..at least alam ko na..or at least i think i do.. at least may iisipin akong rason.. at least..di bale..

lamo,, gusto kita eh,, un langü salamat heü sori rinü heheü i didn't know..ü well,i still don't,,ü pero cge na..ü salamatü ;)

control..control?..

2004-10-26T08:54:00.000-07:00

that's it..that's what i thought i had..i thought i was on top of this "game" i thought i was playing it..turns out exactly the opposite..it was playing me.. again.

i thought everything that was going on i knew of..i thought i was ready for things to come..i thought i knew the things that would happen..well,, what do you know?..i was wrong..again..

things went a little..well,,fast.i thought i was controlling it..but..it controlled me..again..yes..it went a little fast..more than a little..it shocked me..no,,not really,,it surprised me..in a good way.. ithink..or did it?..i don't know (as usual).. what do i know?..really?..someone help?..heheü oh well,, as long as i'm doing what i want to do,,that's good enough for me.ü

a game,,that's it..a game..

2004-10-25T21:19:00.000-07:00

'pinaglalaruan nanaman ako ng tadhana.,'

it's a game..a game..and yet again..i find myself right at the beginning of things..

again i find myself in this familiar state of things..naghahabol nanaman ako..hindi ko alam kung bakit..is this a guilty pleasure?..why?..i don't know why..maybe fate and it's good friend destiny is playing a little game on me..a trick..a little prank even..but whatever it is..i can't explain it,,i can't comprehend..i understand nothing (why does this all seem familiar?)..

it's hard knowing that you can tell someone something but you're too ____ (please supply appropriate wordü) to..i dunno why..but come to think of it..who does? really..

sigh (_)

2004-10-25T16:54:00.000-07:00

i just spoke to my friend a while ago.it really opened my mind to many realizations that are new to me..it feels good..very enlightening..ü la langü just sharing...ü

hmm..

2004-10-25T13:24:00.000-07:00

it just hit me how almost always, it's never your friend you fall for..even if you've kown each other so well for so long..yet still,no sparks,,but if you meet this total complete stranger,,there's always this chance for 'love at first sight'..it hit me that we are attracted most of the time to people we barely even know..how does this thng work really?..i don't have a clue..but it seems that this is how we all live..how we all go about..amazing? is it amazing?., curious? maybe..i', not sure of anything about this,,it just came to mind..heheü

hey

2004-10-25T10:56:00.000-07:00

hey, it's been a while since i started this,, i was thinking of what to put on it,, i was "organizing" everything i was supposed to post,, but,, as usual,, things happen,, and in the course of waiting to organize my thoughts,,(it was about a week,, exam week kasi last week,,ü) things happened, A LOT of things!ü i really liked the things that happened..but i find myself again in the same situation that i've found myself in many times before,,the situation i never want to get back into again but then again,the situation that i can never really understand why i yearn for so much..not really yearn for,, maybe just like,, like a lot,,heheü i don't get it really..but im gonna live it just the same..see where it brings me..enjoy the ride..ü

"fantasy is the best thing that could happen to a person.. so why let 'reality' mock his so called 'fantasy'?.." - anonymous

at last!:)

2004-10-14T23:19:00.000-07:00

at last,, my life I shown..